Lots has happened since my last entry. I imagine that from now on there will be more frequently. I thought I'd finally found that guy. He was sweet, kind, attentive, selfless...
But I feel like such a fool now. Everything has changed. I guess it's just another repetition of the classic story of the naive girl who believed that love could be great.
We fight now all the time. It's feels like we're stuck with cuffs around our pulses. But we seemed to do everything to get out. Are we just scared? And scared of what? Pain, hurt? It doesn't feel that way at my side. After everything that has happened I still love him. Which I shouldn't as he can't care for me. I'm wrong in every way. I am from a different background. I am a freaking romantic with big dreams. I simply care too much. Losing this possibility hurts less than having to lose him.
What I don't understand is why he always comes back to me? You might think that if he does this he must care for me in someway. No other guy I know would be doing this. But why? And why does he always want to keep the flame alive, but never too much alive?
GOD GIVE ME AN ANSWER!!! I wish I could make everything right, but I'm afraid we have astrayed too much from the path we once walked on. Can we ever find our way back?
Please. Someone. Help me.
Love, Vero
I think it is very hard to find that one right person, and during that process, one must experience lots of pain, but this pain will heal and it is necessery for us to make us learn and gain more experience.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenI think you should forget about this guy, as he is not worth it. trust me , you'll find another guy who will be better, it just takes time.
it took me a long time before i finally found my soul mate, and i went through so much pain untill i finally found her. so don't worry, it will happen, it just needs time, and once it happens, you will look back at this guy as a no one !! good luck
Thank you so much Moe for your reaction!
BeantwoordenVerwijderenI've come to realise that he is not the guy for me. Well, my head knows it. My heart is getting there. ;)It's just hard to let someone go, who you've learned to care so much about. But living inside of memories is not life - I get that.
People like you give me hope and deserve every hapiness in life. Your soulmate is blessed, you can take my word on that.
I saw you have a entertainment blog about movies. I'm addicted and I'm trying to learn about movies outside my own box. (I'm thinking about going to a film school) So if you have any great tips, I'd love to hear them. :)