Wanted: a fairy god mother

Goodbye: this time for good?

Fighting for myself

Grateful

I guess I should be grateful. Except for my lovelife (surprise, surprise), my life is finally going pretty well. I feel more welcome with my old friends. I get the seminars that I want and I get a compliment almost every day at my internship. However, as I am a hopeless romantic to the core, I still feel a whole in my life. It's not getting any bigger, which would be a good thing if I could imagine the possibillity.

The next video describes exactly how I feel. Weird, as I normally hate (no offense) dance music like this.

Love, V

Never good enough

Landing on the moon

Tomorrow is D-day. My very first step in the world of film making. It's just one step. But I'm terrified to screw it up. I keep telling myself to pull it together and that I'll do just fine. Technically, it's not even the first day. I've been to the breakdown. So. But it's the first time I'm on some sort of duty. I wonder if Neil Armstrong felt this way when he first stepped into that spaceship so many years ago. I doubt it.

I think he was more down to earth. After all he said: "That's one small step for [a] man, one giant leap for mankind," when he had set foot on the moon. Not when he began his training at NASA.

But then again, he set a step for all mankind. Not only for himself.

Wish me luck. Love, Vero

Lonely

Arms wide open to live the dream

This one's for you and me
Living out our dreams
We're right where we should be
Lift my arms out wide
I open my eyes
And now all I wannna see
Is a sky full of lighters, a sky full of lighters

;) Love, V

PS Sorry it has been a while. I know. But believe me, I need this.

But who is the right you??

Lock up wanted

Just to be clear; I've absolutely no disire to be kidnapped or anything of that kind. I just want to get away from my reality with fake friends and no love.

Love, V

Set fire to the rain

Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass,

but about learning how to dance in the rain.

Love and yours truly,

Vero

Dissapointed

Today I didn't pass for my theoretical exam to drive. You know what the worst about it all was? When I came home I had expected for my mom to console me. Instead she looked at me like I was stupid and said it was only right that my sister would laugh at me. What kind of mother is she???

Love, V

Fake?

Just watched the social network. Mark Zuckerberg is definately a genius. But it definately makes me wonder about the reality of things. It seems to me that reality and things that are real become a rarity, scarse. Facebook and other social network sites give new opportunities to be fake.

But why are people acting fake, producing fake handbags of Gucci, A&F, Chanel,... Fake tans... To protect themselves? To be entertained? To get the attention of that one person your afraid you'll never be accepted by if you are just yourself?

What are we doing? Maybe it's just something Human? For centuries people have been acting. Shakespeare couldn't have been more right to say that life is a stage.

I want to become a filmmaker. Partially to take people on a journey, but also to make them see things they need to see to get somewhere. I do NOT mean to deceive people or to take advantage. That would be the very last thing I'd want.

I feel like being stuck between two opposites - on the one hand I want to see the real stuff. But then again, when things get hard fantasy and fakeness offer me the escape I need.

I guess they both have their goods and bads...

see you guys later - love and peace,

Veronica