My life is a rollercoaster

Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
       

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever

And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time

I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now I'm only falling apart
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together

We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks

I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Turn around bright eyes

Vanity Fair

I would LOVE to be in a vanity fair shoot one day. I think it would be absolutely fabulous!! :D
Just look at these ridiculous beautiful pictures!!!

Love, V

Wishing you were here

Long way to go

Spark

Today I went to see a movie with Artemis. She might in fact be the one who controls my love future. Appollo clearly likes me. He wants to be around me. Which is a good sign right? But I think I might have screwed it up again. Apparently, in love, you don't have to be compassioned all the time. When you can be with the person you want - you go for it. You don't consider the well-being of others. Definetely when it's not necessary! :s

Anyways. We went to the movies with other mythical creatures. Indeed, no goddeses. They aren't friendly enough yet to deserve the title. It could have gone better. But I guess I shouldn't have expected more after almost two years of isolation. I feel with Hercules. By some evil demon he was dragged into a place where he didn't belong. He was after all son of THE god, Zeus. But then again, at the end, he wanted to stay Human. Is my place there too? Would I truly be happier if I stopped trying to be Venus?

It seems unthinkable. I just want things like they used to be. Go back in time and fix everything.

There's something between Appolo and me. He seems happier than usual. But I just don't understand. Am I truly Venus, a godess. Or is that just some pipe dream? I like Appolo more every day.

I don't know if that's a good thing. There's a spark between us. But I'm afraid I've put it out now... He seemed rather sad when he saw I wasn't following. He seemed lost. The last thing I want is to break his heart. He means too much for me.

Please. Every exisiting god - help me! Please - give me a sign that the spark is still there. It's all I need - because one spark can lead to firework!

Love, Veronica

Mythological riddle

Yesterday, the gods dined together. The war seems to be over. As a romantic I was destined to be Venus. Even the first two letters of our names match. Is this destiny or what?! :p The question that keeps running trough my mind: Who's my Hymenaios? Is it Appollo? If, yes - will Artemis be okay with it? She seemed fine yesterday... Or is every man just Mars for me?

Love, V

Jealous

Two very good friends of mine have become recently a couple. Though I'm genuinely happy for them, I can't help to be green eyed jealous. The girl, Luna, is one of the sweetest girls I've ever met and Jake one of the sweetest guys. I think they're great together. But for me it's kind of hard to accept it. Not because I don't think they deserve to be happy. Because I do...

It's just that... I want that picture on facebook where a guy kisses me like he's deeply in love with me. I want his arms around me during a concert. Holding my hand on the street. Become dizzy when I smell him or hear his voice.

I guess there must be something wrong with me. Otherwise I wouldn't be alone after all this time.

Love, V

Love & Ice Tea

Love, Veronica

Some things are written in the stars

Written in the stars

A million miles away

A message to the main

Seasons come and go

but I will never change

and I'm on my way!

(Tinie Tempah - Written in the stars)

Love, V

Writing is my salvation

I'm so freaking tired of people who treat me badly. Just now a guy I've known for years, turned his back on me - FOR NO GOOD REASON! I know - it says more about them than about me. But then I wonder, when is it ever going to end? ANSWER: never. :(

Writing is for me more than a future. It's my destiny, my salvation. I'm not writing my novel, just because I love doing it more than anything. A part of me clings on it because it offers me the chance to proof the world that I can do something. That it's my full right to be here.

So everytime - like now - someone treats me in a way that's hurtful, it gives me immense motivation to keep working on my novel and to keep writing. To make them see it's them who are making a big mistake. Because I know that if I keep climbing, maybe one day I'll reach the top. If I'd give up - they would win.

Harriet Tubman once said:

"Every dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember you have within you the strength, the patience and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world."

Those words give me much strengh. Don't give up and never stop dreaming!

Love, V

Wise words

When there was still a you and me

I've tried to deny it,
but there's no way to go around.
I've tried to banish you,
because I know I need to.

I wish  we could go back,
but we've gone to far.
The bridge is falling down.
Tomorrow it'll have vanished.

Still, I want you to know,
that 'we' was real.
More real than ever known.
So close, but now so far.

Screaming that I'm here
won't help.
You're there and I'm here.
We're on different airwaves.

I wish I could travel back
to that moment.
When we were still on the same wavelength.
When there was still a you and me.


Love, Veronica

Someone like you

Strange. But this immediately makes me feel beter. :-) I'm a neurotic today but the day after tomorrow (20/05/2011) sort of feels like D-day. But I guess you'd have to be me to understand. ;-)

Love, Veronica.

Alone

I was about thirteen when I had my first crush. He turned out to be a self-centered jerk. He was a year older than me, popular like hell for some reason. And I, of course, had to pick him out. The first time I was in love, took me two more years. Again someone popular (sad, typical nerd habit). But this time, not a jerk. He was nice, unaware of his looks and completely blind. Not literally, naturally. My point is; he didn’t see - me.

The funny thing is, when a guy is actually interested - I somehow manage to ruin it completely. I’m unintentionally mean to him, don’t recognize an invitation,.. You name it.

About two months ago, l fell in love with this amazing guy - let’s call him Travis. For the very first time I met someone who I wanted to know everything about me. I felt like I didn’t want to hide anything. Which is weird. Because on the one hand, I’ve never felt more comfortable with anyone like that before. But on the other hand, I often feel like I can’t be myself completely. I can’t let go and be me. Silly me. Rattling me. Childish me. I feel like I have to be grownup, serious and use big words that most people have to look up in dictionary’s. Like, when I’m myself he’ll see something he won’t like. That I’ll  make a fool of myself.

But why would I care? I doubt that he’s even interested in me. Yes, Travis  asked me out three times. Yes, he’s nicer to me than to other girls and accepts me more the way I am. At least - I think he does. But he also uses a bimbo on his invitation to a party with some friends - okay it could be considered as some lame male joke that women don’t get. Sure. But why does he post - on my birthday - a video about models on his blog? And then, when I talk to a other guy, five days later, he puts himself between us? I saw him walking on sunshine. He knew I was coming to see my friends play soccer. So why did he make all the trouble of coming to a match he could even participate in? To see his comrades? Probably. But why didn’t he stay watching on the players bench. I’m sure he could have, if he had wanted to.

One thing is clear. Men lie about themselves. First; they are complex - not simple. Second; they’re not consistent in their acts and words. God, why did you create them? If they didn’t exist, my self-esteem would rise and keep on rising. They are the reason why I’m labeled. They are the reason why I’m ‘alone’.

I'm sorry you guys - I'm having a bad day...

Love, Veronica.

Rapunzel

There I was waiting for class to start. The fool that I am, looks down and spots AGAIN the guy she had a crush on so many years ago. Michael.

Every look we exchange feels like a gun shot, because everytime I see him I'm blown away by his presence. The funny or painful/embarassing part about it is that I always wonder at first why he's looking at me. The reason for this inappropriate staring is because it always takes me a while to recognize him. In my memories he's always handsome, but not like the real handsome he is in real life.

Anyhow. He always gives me this grin. A grin that stands for "This is uncomfortable, I know. It  sucks." I can't exactly blame him for that. Michael shouldn't have reacted the way he did, back then. But if I had taken things slow we might have been good friends.

It's kind of the story of my life. Having a crush and getting dumped before it even gets started. I'm Rapunzel. The girl who's locked up in a lonely tower by the wicked witch of fate. The one, if she's lucky, that guys raise their gazes but never feel like rescueing. And if, by some miracle, one will - the wicked witch of fate will stop him before we can have our happy ending.

Maybe now, you'll understand why I started this blog. ;-)

Love, Veronica

Freedom

You know what I really would love to do one day? I would like to leave Belgium for a whole month, go to North Carolina, stay at some local beach place and look for a job. That would feel like true freedom to me. Just need to find someone to come with me. And then let's fly away, let's fly, let's fly away!!!

:) Maybe it's a naive and mindless pipe dream of mine to find love à la Nicholas Sparks.
Anyway. We'll see. ;)

Love, Veronica

Going nuts

I'm going crazy here! I've searched for hours on Blogger for someone like me. And with me - I mean a girl in her twenties who hasn't got a family and who hasn't got some weird hobbies. Sickness people and religious people all around. I'm a girl in the desert.

Love, Veronica

Love is all you got

Alejandro Manzano

You might be wondering who Alejandro Manzano is. In my personal opinion you must be an alien or at at least have lived on a different planet for the last few years. Alejandro is the lead singer of Boyce Avenue. One of my favorite bands. The reason I mention him now is because...

You see I've just read his FB-page and every time I do that I feel happy. A boy might have broken my heart, I might have just received a bad score on an important exam or be in a fight with one of my best friends. He and his fans (my fellow BA - groupies) always cheer me up.

Not only make those people, who post every day on his page, me feel like part of some family. Alejandro gives me the feeling that they're are some true, passionated and kindhearted people in this crazy world. So thank you. I genuinely hope to meet him some day and talk about life. Grab some pizza and share life philosophies and stuff, you know? ;)

Here is the video of the cover by BA of Katy Perry's firework and Teenage Dream. The first one always gives me courage, energy and inspiration. The second I selected for the simple reason that the first time I heard it - I got goose bumps all over my body. Enjoy!

Love, Veronica

Water for the elephants

Do you know that feeling? When you’ve just seen a great movie and leave the theater - that a part of you is still there? Like you’ve never left the world they made for you? Like your own world, your own reality has just been sprinkled on with stardust? Movies have that mythical power to leave all facts behind and often reality itself.

It’s like a lullaby. First, you still have the strength to fight against the sleep. But somehow you’re dragged into the melody and everything vanishes around you. You started to believe in this dream. As the song ends you feel undefeatable, like everything is right where it should be. The bad thing is…once its magic fades you’re back. And then you start to wonder…

Love, Veronica

Welcome

Hi and welcome to my blog!!!
I'm originated from Belgium - so as you might have guessed already; I normally don't speak English. I speak Flemish. I've just turned scary 21 and I'm studying to be part of the movie business. Maybe that's why I didn't mention my real name. For you guys I'll be Veronica.

I'm an average girl, who's not so average. If that makes any sense. ;-p I have in general, I think the same hopes and dreams as other people. But at the same time, I don't fit in the main crowd. I'm a wishful thinker and a mindless dreamer. A lot of people would say now: "Just keep your feet on the ground and don't float to much." I do believe we need to use our heads, but I also like to think like Mrs. Eleanor Reagan: "The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."

Okay. So truth to be told: it's my very first blog and I'm so excited. I love writing; I'm actually writing my first novel at this moment. The reason I began with this blog is - well, I'm one of those single girls who's still waiting for her first kiss. I hope that people who are in the same situation (future Bridget Jones') as me, will see this as some sort of support. From now on you'll read about my life and thoughts here.

I'd love to hear your thoughts. So feel free to share your thoughts or to tell your story. If you have any questions - fire away! I'll try to answer as soon as I can! ;)

Love, Veronica